Today has been ones of those days....one of those weeks, actually. Graham is out of town working and it seems that everything is harder when he is away. I know, I know, poor me...but you know how it is. So much easier to deal with life when there's someone going through it all with you, right?
I am struggling with some decisions that need to be made, in a few different areas. Problem is, I don't know what the "right" decisions are. Wouldn't it be great if we all just had a crystal ball that we could look into that would tell exactly what we're supposed to do? Don't worry, I am fine...just wishing that things were easy instead of confusing!
I have felt more like a "mom" this past few weeks than ever before in my life. By that I mean, gone are the days when I am at home with my babies with nothing to worry about but them and what time we're going to have our naps. (haha) Gone are the days of waking up when we feel like it, getting dressed when we feel like it, and just doing whatever we FEEL like doing! Getting into the whole school thing is a huge adjustment...for the kids, for me. And it just hit me that every year will just get busier and crazier as they get older and more involved with other lessons and activities. So that is why I am feeling like a MOM...I literally spent all day from 8:20 am to 3pm in the car driving kids to and fro, dropping off, picking up...oy. Like I said, big adjustments.
All that being said, things are still good. I knew that at some point my kids would grow up and we would get to this point...that's life, right? And my hubby will get home tomorrow and I know after that everything will magically be better...but as for today...I am tired. And it's just been one of those days.