Saturday, March 07, 2009
Here I am at 38 weeks. Graham took some pictures of me this afternoon, I figured I better get some pictures before baby comes! It could be anytime now...I had Gabby at 38 weeks, so we'll see!
I'm finally feeling a little bit ready. We finished up the baby's room today (pictures to come soon), so it's just a matter of getting the house somewhat clean and crossing a few more things off the to-do list. Watch me be like, 2 weeks overdue...oh, man that would be awful! I don't even want to think about that! I'm feeling so many things right now...the main thing is SCARED for the labor. Now that it's in the *very soon* future I am scared...trying to tell myself that it'll all be okay. I'm having a hard time believing that at only 4 years old Payton is going to be a big sister for the second time, and that Gabby is just going to BE a big sister. She's been our baby for 2 and a half years, so I'm definatley sad about that. Tonight when we were putting the girls to bed, Gabby was sad (no more bottles!) so I took her with me to the rocking chair and just wrapped her up and cuddled her...she just seemed so tiny to me. It's sad that pretty soon she will seem huge compared to the baby...I need to treasure these last few days with her as my baby, and life with my 2 girls. Of course I am so excited for the baby to arrive...but I'm just at that point that all of this is becoming a reality, and you know what? Sometimes change can be scary. Exciting, but scary.
Thinking back on this pregnancy, it's hard to believe it's almost over. I remember the afternoon I told Graham I was pregnant. He came home from work and I told him and he totally didn't believe me! I could barely believe it myself...such a funny memory. I somehow made it through the 6+ months of nausea, gaining weight, mood swings, aches and pains...aaaahhhh! What a crazy, crazy time. But what you get in the end makes it sooooo worth it.
I can't wait.